Lets try again

Well after being on a ttc break for 8 months we decided to see the doctor and start trying again. I went to the doctor 2 weeks ago and she gave me the okay to start trying again. I havent had a period since January the 27th, so she prescribed me Progesterone to start my period and the 1500mg of Metfromin ER, and some prenatals. The Metformin ER is a godsend no more nasty S/E. So finally on 9-12 I started my period. I cant wait to start my clomid on the 17th and hopefully get my BFP this month!

Yes, I will be a wonderful mother- Author Unknown

There are women that become mothers without effort, without thought, without patience or loss and though they are good mothers and love their children, I know that I will be better. I will be better not because of genetics, or money or because I have read more books but because I have struggled and toiled for this child. I have longed and waited. I have cried and prayed. I have endured and planned over and over again. Like most things in life, the people who truly have appreciation are those who have struggled to attain their dreams. I will notice everything about my child. I will take time to watch my child sleep, explore and discover. I will marvel at this miracle every day for the rest of my life. I will be happy when I wake in the middle of the night to the sound of my child, knowing that I can comfort, hold and feed him and that I am not waking to take another temperature, pop another pill, take another shot or cry tears of a broken dream. My dream will be crying for me. I count myself lucky in this sense; that God has given me this insight, this special vision with which I will look upon my child that my friends will not see. Whether I parent a child I actually give birth to or a child that God leads me to, I will not be careless with my love. I will be a better mother for all that I have endured. I am a better wife, a better aunt, a better daughter, neighbor, friend and sister because I have known pain. I know disillusionment as I have been betrayed by my own body. I have been tried by fire and hell many never face, yet given time, I stood tall. I have prevailed. I have succeeded.I have won. So now, when others hurt around me, I do not run from their pain in order to save myself discomfort. I see it, mourn it, and join them in theirs. I listen. And even though I cannot make it better, I can make it less lonely. I have learned the immense power of another hand holding tight to mine, of other eyes that moisten as they learn to accept the harsh truth and when life is beyond hard. I have learned a compassion that only comes with walking in those shoes. I have learned to appreciate life. Yes, I will be a wonderful mother

Cycle 2 on Clomid

Well I waited and waited for AF to show and she never did so after taking pregnancy tests everyday for the past two weeks, I finally decided to start my provera. I am on pill two of the provera so hopefully AF will show up within the next week. I hope and pray that this is the month. This month I am taking 10mg provera, 100mg clomid, mucinex, folic acid, prenatal vitamins and 1500 metformin. We plan to BD everyday this cycle. Hopefully we will get our June baby!

Why?

Why is it that the people that want to have a child so bad cant seem to get pregnant but people who don't try and don'teven want children seem to get pregnant. This is something that I will never understand. In the past 2 years I have had 2 cousins under the age of 18 get pregnant and a best friend that didn't want to be pregnant. DF and I have been ttc to quite sometime now and every time we hear the news that someone else we know is pregnant it is heartbreaking. I try to put on a happy face around my family and friends and act that I am so happy that they are getting exactly what I have been wanting for so long. At the end of the day I ask myself "What are we doing wrong?" " Why not us?" We have a great relationship, a great support system, and the want and desire to be parents. Why cant we have what we have been wanting for so long? I pray that god will grant me the courage to continue on our ttc journey.

CLOMID 100MG

WELL AFTER CLOMID 50MG BEING A BUST. THE DOC IS NOW STARTING ME ON 100MG OF CLOMID ALONG WITH 10MG OF PROGESTERONE. HOPEFULLY 100MG WILL DO THE TRICK THIS MONTH. EVERY MONTH SEEMS TO BE GETTING HARDER AND HARDER. I AM SO WORRIED THAT IF CLOMID DOESNT SEEM TO HELP WITH OVULATION THAT WE ARE GOING TO HAVE TO RESORT TO SOMETHING ELSE AND WITHOUT INSURANCE I AM REALLY WORRIED ABOUT HOW WE ARE GOING TO PAY FOR EXPENSIVE FERTILITY TREATMENTS.

FIRST CYCLE OF CLOMID

WELL MY FIRST CYCLE OF 50MG CLOMID WAS A BUST. I HAS POSITIVE OPKS ON CD 14,15 AND 16 BUT STILL NOT AF AND I AM NOW ON CD 35. I HAVE TAKEN ABOUT 20 HPTS AND THEY WERE ALL BFN.

Starting Clomid

My doc finally prescribed me Clomid and Progestrone along with metaformin and folic acid. I am so excited. I think this really might be the month for us to concieve. My last day of progestrone was yesteday so AF should be here anyday now.